What has the Lord saved you from? What purpose has He given you?
He waved the gun through the crisp night air toward the party guests in my front yard. He then raised the gun over his head and fired it several times in the air. People fell to the ground to take cover. I just stood there, frozen with fear and disbelief. Within seconds, it seemed, sirens and lights filled the air as the police cars barreled toward our house. The gunmen and his friends had already taken off in to the darkness of the street. So did the party guests. I never saw them again.
You see, 60 seconds earlier (prior to knowing he was armed), I was the one who stepped in front of the gunmen to prevent him from getting into a fight on my very own front porch. Always the mediator, I am. He shoved me out of the way and knocked the other guy off the porch into the bushes.
I asked my 21 year old my roommate to talk to the police since there was alcohol at our party and I was underage, afraid I would lose my scholarship. Still in shock, I slowly made my way up our old carpeted steps. I sat down, buried my head in my hands. Rocking back and forth, I kept saying over and over, “This is not my life.”
This was not my “aha” moment. It was my “uh-uh” moment. Uh-uh, no way was this the path I wanted to take, that I was going to continue on. That moment led me to re-evaluate my life and what God wanted from me. Sitting on those steps, I now realize I was only echoing what the Holy Spirit was saying to me, “This is not your life”. With the help and encouragement of some God-appointed friends in the following weeks I began to open up to the love and forgiveness He wanted to give me.
For most of my life, and leading up to my “uh-uh” moment, I looked like I had it together. Went to church, followed the rules, and excelled in academics and athletics. I was mature and nice, helpful to others, and prayed occasionally when I needed something. I was a good person. But I wasn’t following Jesus.
Realizing that I did not want to “control” my life anymore, I gave it up to the One who has ultimate control. Best. Decision. Ever.
So did I have an “aha” moment? Yes. But not until almost ten years later. Ten years of development, prodding, and pruning to lead me to that moment…it became apparent that God was leading me to create Inspired Apparel, weaving together three of my greatest passions….my faith, design, and fitness. I am so thankful that He would use a broken, sinful little me to do big work for Him. Thankful that I had half a mind to go along with it, too.
2 Timothy 1:9 says “He has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace.”
So grateful he saved me from an angry gunmen and my own sinful life to give me grace and His purpose.